Strength and weaknesses

I seem to always write my blog on a Sunday, maybe it's the day that God talks to me when I search for Him. Today we went to a church in Napier, I didn't really think much of it at first, I have a bad habit of judging other churches that I have not been to. Normally I do not get moved or touched by sermons that I do not think it's from God directly speaking to me, just like today's sermon. It was on integrating your strength and character, I sat there taking sermon notes like I always do. It was just another normal sermon that talks about how God love and accept us no matter what we are good at or how much we have achieved, something that I have heard for so many Sundays, a message that was part of my life growing up. Little did I know it was a sermon God planned for me and was going to change my life with it, change my view on my life. The pass few nights when I was trying to sleep, I finally had time to take a break from studying and worry about my future and what I am called to do with my life. I am so scared that what I am studying is not actually for me, I am making goals up for myself that is not from God. Another problem is that I am not good at anything, today I finally noticed I have been comparing my weakness with other people's strength. God has given me my owe gifts and abilities, I just have to find them and use them to serve others. You are never going to be good at everything, that's why there are other humans in the world, for us to work together to create a community. God has given us different gifts, some may seem bigger than others, but it doesn't mean God love you less. Love yourself for who you are and accept yourself, a poem someone shared with me call the plum, its goes like this:
"You can learn that you cannot be loved by all people
You can be the finest PLUM in the world,
RIPE – JUICY – SUCCULENT
And offer yourself to all.
However you must remember there will always be people who do not like plums.
You can learn to understand that if you are the world’s finest plum,
And someone you like does not like plums
You have a choice of becoming a banana.
However, you need to be warned that if you choose to become a banana,
You will be a second-rate banana,
However, you can always be the best plum.
You need to understand that if you choose to be a second-rate banana,
There will always be people who do not like bananas,
Furthermore, you can spend your life trying to become the best banana (which is impossible if you are a plum),
Or: You can seek again to be the
BEST PLUM!!"
You do not need to do great things and achieve goals for God to love you, or to earn God's grace. He loves you for who you are and what you can do even before you understand you and love yourself. One of the things I am learning at the moment is to love myself for who I am, in order to do that I have to understand how God loves me even with my faults and weaknesses. God bless, go well :)